My head is pounding and my legs are weak, so much so that I do not trust them to carry me much further, and my fingers seek out support when I walk, be it a handrail or cubicle wall.
Something about this environment/headspace drives me to write, but when I look over what it is I’ve written, only trite, uninspired words greet me.
…
The fire behind my eyes that makes the world double when I am not paying strict attention is casting a harsh edge on my vision, somehow making the florescent lighting even more cruel to the people I see.
I almost typed there the people I mutter ‘hello’ to — but it occurred to me that I didn’t say hello this morning, not to a single person.
In fact, I can’t say that I’ve ever seen anyone in this building before in my entire life.
If I left now, not a soul would notice. No-one here knows my name, my face, or why it is I come here.
No person would notice, but a mark would be left in some computer database in a place far, far away from here, and I would never be welcome within these walls again.
…
There is something more.
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solace lies outside those walls…and it’s here for you always…
xo…
I have forgotten my cigarettes, and the store was all out of my brand.
Sounds lind of like the intro to a novel, doesn’t it? Something by Wilde?
I had forgotten my cigarettes, and the tobacconist was all out of my brand.
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I think I need to leave now.
that’s because you’re both -gay-
*grin*
sorry today is poo….home soon?
net is messed so not much online time for me…i think everyone in the neightbourhood is online….
can you leave early? miss you…
i adore i adore
Oh.. Well thanks Jairus, how sweet of you to say.
*flips you the finger*
Didn’t see you on my way in today, did I?
Would’ve destroyed my narrative, too…
I’ll find out soon enough if I can leave early… I may not have a choice, if I don’t feel better.
oooo hun…*pet*
i’m sorry…i am afraid of you making things bad for you at work which we cannot afford, but you also -need- to feel better…
/worried
Just leave…..I do. The ACD never catches up.
Didn’t you get suspended, though?
Well, ever day I wasn’t there I was late.
Never for taking off without being seen.
You’re in a different CC than me, however.
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I think if I don’t go lie down soon, I just might die from pain.
Awww dood, That sucks so much
*hugs and kisses*
I love you babe, feel better – sending you healing powers..I am a ninja – I can do this
Hi Jairus!
Just to let you know, i am bringing Run Ronnie Run cd to zaphod’s tomorrow. If you can make me a dvd-playable copy, you can keep the cd. :)
later, helene